[Brittany B]

Being at LIFE has allowed me to achieve so much more than I ever could have realized. I went into the program with the main goal as losing as much weight that was literally possible. I focused all my effort on the physical outcome, but it was the complete opposite that I overlooked. I figured it would be easy to lose weight. I have had an eating disorder for 8 years and only in the last 6 months did I put on too much weight. I went into the program believing that I knew best as to how to achieve this. I am an extremely stubborn person and have a lot of trust issues and believed my way was the best way. Long story short, my way didn't work. However, something happened that I have never experienced before. No one gave up on me. Despite my stubborness and poor decisions, everyone there kept helping me and encouraging me. This is something I have never had happened. I'm used to people giving up on me altogether or overlooking me if I was not #1. Not the case this time. I didn't get it, how could these people actually accept me and help me even when I wasn't making the best decisions? Could people actually be trusted? Well, I ended up getting injured and sick and after 2 months at LIFE had to go home for a bit. It was then that things got tough. I started struggling again, and wasn't eating enough or taking good care of myself. LIFE gave me the gift of asking for help and putting my trust into other people's hands. With Schuyler's advice, Claire's advice, and pretty much everyone there advice I was able to realize that I don't have to know all the answers in the world. I finally surrendered, asked for help and put my trust into other people besides myself. I have been in AZ for the past few weeks getting help and understanding that my way is not the best way or the only way. If it weren't for LIFE I would still be making poor choices and never would have achieved my long term goals. I went into LIFE wanting a physical change, but without a mental change too, there is no keeping the physical. I would not have been able to come to these choices without LIFE and the people there. In many ways I owe my own life to them for getting me back on the right path. I am doing great now and will be returning to MDR within the month to start training for tennis again. This time I know that people can be trusted and asking for help does not mean I have failed. I know that after another couple months at LIFE I will be able to achieve many more physical and mental goals along with a few tennis trophies too!

[claire559]

Brittany B, on 29 March 2010 - 04:32 AM, said:

Being at LIFE has allowed me to achieve so much more than I ever could have realized. I went into the program with the main goal as losing as much weight that was literally possible. I focused all my effort on the physical outcome, but it was the complete opposite that I overlooked. I figured it would be easy to lose weight. I have had an eating disorder for 8 years and only in the last 6 months did I put on too much weight. I went into the program believing that I knew best as to how to achieve this. I am an extremely stubborn person and have a lot of trust issues and believed my way was the best way. Long story short, my way didn't work. However, something happened that I have never experienced before. No one gave up on me. Despite my stubborness and poor decisions, everyone there kept helping me and encouraging me. This is something I have never had happened. I'm used to people giving up on me altogether or overlooking me if I was not #1. Not the case this time. I didn't get it, how could these people actually accept me and help me even when I wasn't making the best decisions? Could people actually be trusted? Well, I ended up getting injured and sick and after 2 months at LIFE had to go home for a bit. It was then that things got tough. I started struggling again, and wasn't eating enough or taking good care of myself. LIFE gave me the gift of asking for help and putting my trust into other people's hands. With Schuyler's advice, Claire's advice, and pretty much everyone there advice I was able to realize that I don't have to know all the answers in the world. I finally surrendered, asked for help and put my trust into other people besides myself. I have been in AZ for the past few weeks getting help and understanding that my way is not the best way or the only way. If it weren't for LIFE I would still be making poor choices and never would have achieved my long term goals. I went into LIFE wanting a physical change, but without a mental change too, there is no keeping the physical. I would not have been able to come to these choices without LIFE and the people there. In many ways I owe my own life to them for getting me back on the right path. I am doing great now and will be returning to MDR within the month to start training for tennis again. This time I know that people can be trusted and asking for help does not mean I have failed. I know that after another couple months at LIFE I will be able to achieve many more physical and mental goals along with a few tennis trophies too!

I do believe we had that discussion about trust once or twice...or three times.
Brittany-I am so proud of you!

[Brittany B]

claire559, on 28 March 2010 - 09:01 PM, said:

I do believe we had that discussion about trust once or twice...or three times.
Brittany-I am so proud of you!

Well you know it might have been more like 50ish times but hey it worked! lol

[surfergirl]

Brittany B, on 29 March 2010 - 10:48 AM, said:

Well you know it might have been more like 50ish times but hey it worked! lol

Great to hear your honesty and that you are willing to let people help you as you cant go through life alone. Im glad you arent as stubborn as you were coming in and I believe that people do care about people. I dont know if you ever saw semi pro but there logo was Everyone love everyone. Maybe this can be your new quote. Just a thought it might help you let more people into your life.

I have always been an open person and let everyone in in my life. It is a great feeling being able to speak freely to people and having that innocence about it. Try it sometime and see what happens. I wish you all the best and success in a tennis career.

[claire559]

Brittany B, on 29 March 2010 - 06:48 PM, said:

Well you know it might have been more like 50ish times but hey it worked! lol

Is working-it's a process, not a product remember? (we may just have that discussion again-you never know!)

Cheering you on,
Claire

[Brittany B]

claire559, on 31 March 2010 - 08:41 PM, said:

Is working-it's a process, not a product remember? (we may just have that discussion again-you never know!)

Cheering you on,
Claire

Haha! Good point! We just may re-discuss this! Hope to see you by the end of this month!

[claire559]

Brittany B, on 01 April 2010 - 11:48 PM, said:

Haha! Good point! We just may re-discuss this! Hope to see you by the end of this month!

Good to hear! And how are the horses out there? (We may have to talk about that too!)

[Brittany B]

claire559, on 04 April 2010 - 08:36 PM, said:

Good to hear! And how are the horses out there? (We may have to talk about that too!)

Horses in AZ??? Not so great lol! BUT...... I have been seriously entertaining the idea of riding this year.....not sure if I'm ready to buy a horse but at least lessons and perhaps lease.... Gotta get doing some jumpers and dressage again ASAP

[Amber]

Proud of you girlie!! You've come a long way and you are in our thoughts often! Keep it up and keep us posted lovely!

[Brittany B]

Amber, on 12 April 2010 - 10:37 AM, said:

Proud of you girlie!! You've come a long way and you are in our thoughts often! Keep it up and keep us posted lovely!

Thanks Amber! I'm doing pretty good! Kind of a long story but things are getting a lot better! I have started writing my book too which is kinda fun too. Miss you lots!!! Its been raining like crazy here but no earthquakes at least! I'm starting to ride and play tennis a bit but am still having a lot of physical issues. I will be back and going strong it just might be a few more weeks than planned. Ok well keep spinning and keep singing!!!